I know I am late on this.
This past year has been really tough and it doesn't look like 2013 is going to be any easier. If you don't know already my mom ended up in the hospital at the end of 2011 with a ruptured aneurysm, she was in a coma for about 3 months and then has been in a minimal state ever since. She goes in for a long surgery to replace the piece of skull they removed with a metal plate at the end of January. I am very nervous about this surgery. I am hoping things will get back on track after the surgery.
During all this I feel like I lost what makes me happy, all I can think about is my mom. Sometimes all I want to do is sit on the couch and stare at the tv, sometimes I just want to sit and cry. On top of that my boyfriend of 4 1/2 years decided that he wanted to be with somebody else, when I needed him most. I was very blindsided by this and believe it or not I do not hate him. Now my goal is to try and deal with everything and get back to what makes me happy.
So I am going to keep trying to pull myself out of the little funks I get into and get back to my art. I took some painting classes but I had to stop because it got to expensive for me to keep up with. I promised myself that I am going to try and come home every Wednesday and paint, just like I was going to class. I also want to keep up with this blog and try and post something at least once a week even if it is just a work in progress. In addition I need to get my graphics and designs together and continue posting those.
Here is the painting I have been working on so far. Looking at the picture I realize there are somethings I need to fix. Other than that I think it is coming along rather nicely.
Hang in there, Tara. Your paintings are good and creating is good for you (Your soul or whatever) It is very easy to let it go when life is going wrong but it is worth keeping going. Keep on painting! and blogging.
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry you are having such a tough time. And I'm sorry that it took so long for the 'jerk' side of the boyfriend to surface. It is good that you aren't wasting your time on hate. Indifference is much better. (at least in a situation like that, it is my opinion that indifference is better. It is less draining.)
ReplyDeleteIn the thumbnail on my blog list, I thought that was a real bottle! I do hope that I will get to see the finished piece of art.
Thank you for your encouraging words Gina and Ange!
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